Success & dream????

Hola everyone! After sooooooooo long i didn't update my blog and today I wanna share smthg. Finally, I've achieved my dream to get at least 3.5 for my pointer. And alhamdulillah, I got 3.85 for my sem 4. Before this, I got 2.5 for my sem 1, sem 2 I got only 3.2, sem 3 I've achieved my target & I got 3.54 and yesterday my result for sem 4 came out and I got 3.85. Alhamdulillah syukur bebanyak!!!! My dream finally come true. Thanks a lot to all my friends & family that are always be by my side. Thank you for all yr doa. Srsly, i still can't believe & i can't even sleep well yesterday hahahahahahahahhahahahaha tak cukup tidur and struggle with assignments projects sgttttt worth it. Nak kata tak cukup tidur pun tak actually cuz i do sleep a lot too! I do watch dramas all the time. Sempat lagi layan Syafiq Kyle punya drama which is NUR. Sem 4 paling banyak menangis & i even told my dad that i wanna give up & quit studies in Civil Engineering. He always told me to sabar & banyakkan berdoa. Only my roommates know how struggle i am to get this place. Only my roommates know how weak i am during sem 4. Thanks a lot to my classmate yg sudi buat assignments & project together. Bincang and bg ideas how to solve it. Thanks jugak section lagi satu cuz always tolong and tolong tanpa henti. You guys sanggup reply whatsapp pagi petang siang malam nk layan and jawab all my questions. Thank you jugak kepada yg sudi bg ilmu and tak kedekut nak share ilmu. Prinsip I satu je, if I tolong orang lain and tak kedekut ilmu, in Shaa Allah, Allah akan tolong kita walau mcm mana sekalipun. Keep praying & doa bebanyak. Redha & tawakal. One more thing, to succeed, you have to accept others theories as well. Jgn over confident with yr own theories in studies cuz you're not even a lecturer. Tanya and bincang & if tak confident and ragu2 with others punya jawapan then stick with yr own answers but based on buku rujukan and internet jugak. Cari ilmu cuz ilmu tak datang bergolek kat kita. Always refer rakan2 yg lain jugak & even lect. Banyakkan membaca?? I tak suka baca & boringgggg. Reading is good but kefahaman is the most important thing. Jangan hafal jalan kira & jalan kerja. But try to understand every details of it. Cuba relate dgn previous punya subject. If kwn2 mintak tolong,always kena tolong even terpaksa reply lambat pun still kena tolong. Sorry laaa for those yg i reply whatsapp lambat. You hv to know tht im a student too & ada jugak assignment and projects. If I tak reply means maybe i tgh busy and serabut. Lambat mcm mana pun, i tetap reply jugak is it? hehehehhe sorryyyy bukan sengaja but u hv to understand my situation too. Once again, thank you everyone!!!!




Love, Anis Syazwani ❤

17 April 2018

17 April 2018, Tuesday.
I got a called from my mom & she said, "Atok dah takde....." I was like, no, you're just kidding. But after a awhile, my mom told me the whole story & I jst keep my mouth shut & starts to cry. I cried so hard & just can't stop crying. My roommates & friends were standing in front of me & comfort me. They hug me & I told them tht my grandpa was just passed away. I continued to cry & they rushing to find bus ticket to Putrajaya but there's no bus early in the midnight. My friends struggling to find one for me & they found one ticket to tbs & transit to KLIA2. I packed my things & luckily, Kartinie's boyfriend helped to drive me to TSK. After 7 hours of journey from Kuantan to Negeri Sembilan, I reached to my hometown & I saw a body with no soul laying on the bed with flawless face ever. He smile & I saw tht, his face was just calm & I know that he's going to heaven now and searching for his wife, who passed away abt 9 years ago, my lovely nenek! Alhamdulillah, everything's went well & smoothly. We settled down everything before zuhur. I can't stop crying bcs he's the reason why I am in UMP & further studies in engineering field. He's the one & only grandpa who loves to read newspaper everyday & loves all the foods that I cooked. He love to cook "sambal hijau ikan keli", my fav dishes. We love to share gossips & stories together.... But everything's gonna be memories. He left me without a word. I've been talking to myself that he's not gonna live longer bcs I can feel from his eyes & his body. I've asked him to stay here a bit longer at least he could see my graduation day. I've promise to buy him luxury things when I hv my own money. But,,,,, Allah loves u more. You are now heading to the heaven & rest in peace. Past 2 weeks, I've took care of u for a week during my midsem break. I never know that, it was the last time we spent our days together. A week of taking care of u, it was so precious. I've cooked yr fav meal, chic porridge. Gives u positive vibes. Gives u motivation.... Thank you for everything & sorry for not being there by yr side on ur last day in this world. I will always pray for your happiness up there. There's nothing to worry abt here. Just go & rest in peace. Find ur true love up there cuz she's been waiting for u quite long. May Allah bless u & forgive all yr wrongdoings in this cruel world. Al-fatihah....

Fav cover this Jan ❤

So this is my fav cover Ex's & Oh's by Ashley Tisdale & Vanessa Hudgens. I found this cover in twitter. I saw someone retweet this cover && yassss I'm so in love with their voices. Omg they're so beautiful in & out. They reminds me of High School Musical 😭😭💕💕

Car boot sales @ UMP

So, hello everyone! I wanna share abt this one nice man. There's car boot sale at our university yesterday. Kartinie & I went to this one stall which they're selling many kinds of biscuits. Kartinie wanna buy her fav biscuit, so she told him tht she's just want that biscuit for only rm3. But then, when she wants to give the rm3, the uncle said "nvm, just take it. I know u came from far 😊" . We're both be likeeeee; "woww omggggg you're so nicee. Why you being so niceeeeeeee ppl?? 😭😭😭😭" we're both speechless & ofc said thank you so much then. May Allah bless you always & may your business will be successful. Aamiin 😉😊 so next, we went to this cutie mini stall which they're selling kinda cube ice-cream. Omg soooooo yummyyyy 😋🍦 yesterday was my very first time saw that kinda cube ice-cream yknow. At first I be like, okay what is this??? Is this an ice-cream??? The price is just rm2. Yaaa, I know that's so cheap isn't? So, I bought strawberry flavor & tinie's was keladi  flavor. The ice-cream tasted so yummy & veryyyyyyyyyyyy soft. Srsly, you guys should try tht cube ice-cream!!!!! There's a lot of stalls yesterday; I'm so not gonna describe each of the stalls hahahahahahahaha but there's various kinda things they're selling yesterday at car boot sale.

Trust

It's easy to trust ppl. Usually, if a person have a very good personalities & attitudes, we usually put high percentage of trust on them. Well, I've told myself, "not to trust ppl. Don't put yr trust easily on ppl. Don't even trust them even they're good to you." Butttt, nope! I do trust ppl so easily. I thought, if they're very close to me, so I can put 100% trust on them. Hahahahahahahahahaha I WAS WRONG!!!!. I've never thought that a person who are close to me, could lying to me. It's hard for me to believe how u could lie to me. You said that they are yours. It hurts my heart. Deeply hurt inside. Obviously, that's mine. It would be good if you jut tell me the truth. I'm so not gonna to blame u or what. I'm not going to raise up my voice. I just want u to tell me the truth. That's it. Yknow, if u keep lying to me, u keep pretending that nothing happens, idek what to say. I might be someone else. I might change myself 360. I might not be able to treat u like before. I might be a fake person in front of you. I've no idea why all of this happen. I've tried my best to stay & be positive. But, I can't. I don't even care abt wht you've took. But, it's all abt feelings. It's hurt. I am so careless on taking care of my own things. That's why I need a very good friends around me to always remind me abt my things. You're one of them. But, I was wrong & my thoughts are all totally wrong. I'm fine! It's okay. There's a reason behind of this. Thanks to u, I've learned smthg new in my life. Don't put your trust on anyone except your family. No matter how good a person is, no matter how close they are to you, pls don't ever put your trust on them. Even they're very  close to you, we don't even know whether they're being real or just pretending for the good sake of themselves. Taking advantages on others?? Hahahaha well, I'll waiting for you to tell me the truth. I will always keep waiting for u to just be honest to me & to yrself. I hope you realize what you've done & fix this thing & mess. U supposed to say smthg. You supposed to feel smthg when you're lying to me. & you supposed to do smthg. It's veryyyyy easy to say just a word, "sorry". But, you're the one who make it difficult & complicated. I hope you're reading this & message me as soon as possible.

Syawal, Eid Mubarak!

It's 6/7/2016! First day of Syawal. So, happy Eid Mubarak everyone. I'm taking this opportunity to seek apologies for all my wrongdoing to all of u. I'm sorry if I did smthg wrong towards u gais especially to all my family & friends. I'm trying to be good & become a better person, day by day. I love all the people around me. I miss y'all 😭😭😭😭😭 to all my classmates, u gais are the best! You'll always be in my heart ♥ without u gais, I'll never be like what I am now. I've learned a lot from u gais. Too many memories that we've created together. & I hope to meet all of u soon. Eventho we're always be like cats & dogs but our relationship is too strong to handle yknow hahahahaha aiceh. No matter how terrible our relationship is, but still I love y'all. I'm sorry gais for all my mistakes, my words, my actions & all. To all my classmates at UMP, i still in process to get know each of you. I don't really know u gais well now bcs our relationship is still new. And I hope, we can be good friends from now on. Sorry bcs I'm not too friendly with new people around me. I hope y'all understand my situation is & be friendly with me. To all my roommates, Atiqah, Que & Emy, thank you for being such a good friends of mine at UMP. Thank you for being so kind & friendly. I'm sorry if I did hurt your feelings & all. Last but not least, to all my best friends, thank you for everything. You gais are still the best!!!! I'm sorry for all my mistakes, my words, my actions & so on. Thank you for still being my best friends & be there whenever I need u gais. I love all of u. Thank you Nadia, Ain, Intan, Iman, Aidil... I love all of you, ppl!!!!! Thank you for everything & selamat hari rayaaaaaa. Maaf zahir & batin. 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉✨

First Day at University Malaysia Pahang, UMP (Gambang)

Such a tiring day for me & ofc for my parents as well. The day before I enter to this place, I was keep hoping & praying to have such a good friends, roommates, classmates & so on. And alhamdulillah, I met some few good friends tht are truly kind.. The place was quite nice & the room was alhamdulillah, okay & comfortable for sure. I met Ain, Que & another one girl from sabahan at the office. Were patiently waiting for the matrix card. Like srsly, they're really kind & veryyyyyy comfortable to be with. But the prob is, we're not in the same courses. Haiyooooo 😥😭😩 okay next, roommates!!!!!! My roommates are really understanding & ofc veryyyyyy nice ppl. Atiqah, Que & Emilyana. Atiqah was a person I met before at the office. We're be like, "yayyyyyyyyy satu bilik!!!". Hahahahaha 😂😂🎉🎉🎉🎉🎊🎊 let's move to the room. I am the first person who entered the room. I choose to pick the lower bed (it's double decker). There was no fan accept for the upper bed. The uni used the wall fan. So, i asked my dad to go buy one fan for me since I didn't felt the fan's air. He went to Kuantan & brought a lil cutie fan for me huhuhu. My mum was busy helping me with my clothes & things. Thank God for giving me such a lovely & understanding parents. My roommates were all from Pahang. And their homes were just nearest this place. I am the only one from Selangor 😭😭😭😭😭 I've registered a few days ago. And yesterday was my very first day to enter the classes. I choose to further my studies in Civil Engineering bcs I think I should try & challenge myself. Hmmm that's it. Idek what else to share abt. So, WELCOME DEARSELF TO UMP, GAMBANG!!!!!!! 🎊🎉🎊🎉🎊

Attitudes; Customers VS Sellers (Online Shop)

I can't understand why ppl should be so harsh & have no respect to others. Well, I am a human being. I do have feelings. If u can't put your trust on me, then pls put your trust on your parcel. Ppl being so damn mean just bcs they didn't get what they want. I am doing this online shop is not for fun. I'm doing this bcs I love business & I'm so into it. I'm doing this to get experiences on how to do things by myself. Like others online shops have received. I am so disappointed on how some ppl in Malaysia communicate with their sellers. You're pushing me & even says some words that hurt deep inside. Honestly, I am so giving up with some of these customers. I just want you to respect me & watch out every each words tht you're typing. I put all my trusty & respect to all my customers. I even believe on every each words tht you're trying to tell. Well, sometimes I do post you're parcel late due to things I have to settle. But I do inform you abt it. I even apologize to every mistakes tht I do. If your parcel are late, you can't put your blame on me. Sometimes, the parcel can't be detected by the tracking number bcs of the system breaking down. But, after a day, the parcel safely arrived at your home. Look!!! Some of my customers, understand & some are not. They're keep pushing me. Well gaissss, im not working there. It's not my fault. I've done my job & that's it. I do love online shop. I've bought so manyyyyyy things from online shop. I even gave a present like every year to my dad through online shop. So, I understand your feelings. I know how worried you are abt your parcel. I know. And I felt the same thing every time I buy things from online shop. I know how scared you are. But pls, put your trust & believe on your seller. If you're not sure, just put your trust on your parcel. In shaa Allah, everything's going to be okay. Stay patient & calm!!!!! I'm sharing this as a reminder to everyone out there who wants to buy through online shop. I bet some of the sellers out there might already faced the same thing like i do. Just stop being so typical Malaysian. It's already 2016 & you should open up your mind & see the world. Think out of box. Speak wisely. Improve for the good sake of the country. Show to the world that there's no such a typical Malaysian. That's it!!!!! Respect your customers & respect the sellers as well. Show how harmonies Malaysia is.

MY STORY ABOUT UPU RESULT

Hello everyone! Well, nowadays, ppl keep talking abt upu results & all. I'm still confused on how they choose students. Okay, let's begin with upu result. My personally story.. Yassssssss, ppl who were taking spm 2015, like all.........are waiting for upu result. Day by day. Week by week. Month by month. And finallyyyyyyyyy it is the day to check upu result & everyone are hoping for the best result to come out. So am i. Some of them are luckily & get what they've been dream for ((it feels like the whole world is theirs & feels soooooo thankful & grateful fir the opportunities)). But some of them are unfortunately, didn't achieve their target & dreams. It's feels sooooooooo miserable & starting to think that the world is unfair. Like, REALLY UNFAIR!!! AND THATS SO REAL. I know  & understand how they're totally feel bcs actually I'm also one of them. Ppl said, "you must get good results to achieve your goals & ofc to further your studies in university like you always dream of." Yassssssss, I'm studying like really hard. When I'm in standard 6, i don't think that education is important in life. So, my upsr result was bad & I just got 3A 2B. At that time, all my close friends get very excellent results which is 5A's like most of them. Eh jap, salah. """Actually ALL OF THEM""". They're all enter in good boarding schools. So, when i enter in high school, I started to really care abt my studies & all. Alhamdulillah, I have veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy good friends & I'm really thankful & grateful for knowing them as my best friends & ofc they're like my sisters. When I'm in form3, we're studying together like so damn hard in order to achieve our goals. We're frequently doing study group, discussion, tasks & all. And alhamdulillah, I got 6A 2B for my pmr. Eventho I didn't get straight A's but still I'm really thankful . And we're did the same thing when we're in form5, but I didn't put my effort like before bcs I'm so giving up with chemistry hahahahahahaha. Thanks to Nadia & Ain bcs they're really helped me a lot with my studies & giving advices whenever I'm giving up with science streams sub. And alhamdulillah, eventho I didn't also get straight A's but still for me, i got good result 5A's out of 9 sub. Then, I'm waiting like 6 months for matriks & upu result. I'm not working like everyone does. I'm not hanging out like everyday or even every week. Mostttt of my day is at home.. I'm staying at home & enjoying my life watching dramas, films, baking, cooking & ofc sleepingggggggg ((bcs my dad didn't allow me to go out or doing part time jobs)). So, it's the dayyyyyyyyy that im waiting for longggg time. I'm srsly so nervous & shaking at the same time. So, before I checked, i pray & ask for the best result. Then, i click on upu.mohe.gov.my. It's error gaissss! Hahahahahahhaha that's makes me moreeeeeee & extremely nervous. One of my friend gave me another link, so that i can check it. At that time, my internet suddenly slow down. Haih, I'm starting feels smthg. So, one of my friend, helped me to check my upu result. And she even screenshot the result. Unluckily, I didn't get. "Maaf, anda tidak berjaya... blablabla....." It's feels like im in the dark world. Like reallyyyyyyyyyy dark yknow. I knocked down & crying so damn hard. I ignored all the whatsapp noti, & even calls. I off my phone & crying for the whole day. I couldn't accept the fact, the reality. I'm hoping that was a dream. But, that's it. IT IS REAL MAYN?!!!!! I keep saying that this is all unfair & the world is cruel. Too cruel to handle. Whyyyyyyyy and whyyyyy must be me?? This is sooo unfair. Even my friend who only got 2,3,4A's & even have no A could get part in university. Uitm, uthm, unisza & so on. I THINK THAT MY LIFE IS GONE! MY GOALS ARE ALL DISAPPEAR. MY DREAMS & AMBITION ARE ALL FAR AWAYYYYYY & ITS REALLY HARD TO GET IT & MAKE IT COMES TRUE! I FEELS LIKE I AM THE MOST IDIOT PERSON IN THIS WORLD BCS DIDNT BEING CHOOSE TO BE ONE OF THEM. After a few days, i feels so much better bcs of the advices that everyone gave. I feels so much better. I'm starting to Google & create a new goals. So, I've decided to choose Civil eng or Electrical eng. i checked in semak syarat upu & all. I do my own research. Everyday I'm doing research... I even read some blogs in order to get good inputs. And tmrw is the day of rayuan upu. I'm hoping the best. Yassssssss.
P/s; to anyone out there who faces the same thing like i do, pls stay strong. It's okay for you to cry & screaming but remember, there's a reason. Allah will gives the best & very best to all & every human in this world. Yes, world is unfair. TOO UNFAIR.  BUT, JUST BELIEVE IN MIRACLE. BELIEVE IN ALLAH. BELIEVE THAT SMTHG WOW WILL HAPPEN  SOON! Thanks for reading this. I'm just sharing what i feels inside. Have a nice dayyyy ✨😉