Success & dream????

Hola everyone! After sooooooooo long i didn't update my blog and today I wanna share smthg. Finally, I've achieved my dream to get at least 3.5 for my pointer. And alhamdulillah, I got 3.85 for my sem 4. Before this, I got 2.5 for my sem 1, sem 2 I got only 3.2, sem 3 I've achieved my target & I got 3.54 and yesterday my result for sem 4 came out and I got 3.85. Alhamdulillah syukur bebanyak!!!! My dream finally come true. Thanks a lot to all my friends & family that are always be by my side. Thank you for all yr doa. Srsly, i still can't believe & i can't even sleep well yesterday hahahahahahahahhahahahaha tak cukup tidur and struggle with assignments projects sgttttt worth it. Nak kata tak cukup tidur pun tak actually cuz i do sleep a lot too! I do watch dramas all the time. Sempat lagi layan Syafiq Kyle punya drama which is NUR. Sem 4 paling banyak menangis & i even told my dad that i wanna give up & quit studies in Civil Engineering. He always told me to sabar & banyakkan berdoa. Only my roommates know how struggle i am to get this place. Only my roommates know how weak i am during sem 4. Thanks a lot to my classmate yg sudi buat assignments & project together. Bincang and bg ideas how to solve it. Thanks jugak section lagi satu cuz always tolong and tolong tanpa henti. You guys sanggup reply whatsapp pagi petang siang malam nk layan and jawab all my questions. Thank you jugak kepada yg sudi bg ilmu and tak kedekut nak share ilmu. Prinsip I satu je, if I tolong orang lain and tak kedekut ilmu, in Shaa Allah, Allah akan tolong kita walau mcm mana sekalipun. Keep praying & doa bebanyak. Redha & tawakal. One more thing, to succeed, you have to accept others theories as well. Jgn over confident with yr own theories in studies cuz you're not even a lecturer. Tanya and bincang & if tak confident and ragu2 with others punya jawapan then stick with yr own answers but based on buku rujukan and internet jugak. Cari ilmu cuz ilmu tak datang bergolek kat kita. Always refer rakan2 yg lain jugak & even lect. Banyakkan membaca?? I tak suka baca & boringgggg. Reading is good but kefahaman is the most important thing. Jangan hafal jalan kira & jalan kerja. But try to understand every details of it. Cuba relate dgn previous punya subject. If kwn2 mintak tolong,always kena tolong even terpaksa reply lambat pun still kena tolong. Sorry laaa for those yg i reply whatsapp lambat. You hv to know tht im a student too & ada jugak assignment and projects. If I tak reply means maybe i tgh busy and serabut. Lambat mcm mana pun, i tetap reply jugak is it? hehehehhe sorryyyy bukan sengaja but u hv to understand my situation too. Once again, thank you everyone!!!!




Love, Anis Syazwani ❤

17 April 2018

17 April 2018, Tuesday.
I got a called from my mom & she said, "Atok dah takde....." I was like, no, you're just kidding. But after a awhile, my mom told me the whole story & I jst keep my mouth shut & starts to cry. I cried so hard & just can't stop crying. My roommates & friends were standing in front of me & comfort me. They hug me & I told them tht my grandpa was just passed away. I continued to cry & they rushing to find bus ticket to Putrajaya but there's no bus early in the midnight. My friends struggling to find one for me & they found one ticket to tbs & transit to KLIA2. I packed my things & luckily, Kartinie's boyfriend helped to drive me to TSK. After 7 hours of journey from Kuantan to Negeri Sembilan, I reached to my hometown & I saw a body with no soul laying on the bed with flawless face ever. He smile & I saw tht, his face was just calm & I know that he's going to heaven now and searching for his wife, who passed away abt 9 years ago, my lovely nenek! Alhamdulillah, everything's went well & smoothly. We settled down everything before zuhur. I can't stop crying bcs he's the reason why I am in UMP & further studies in engineering field. He's the one & only grandpa who loves to read newspaper everyday & loves all the foods that I cooked. He love to cook "sambal hijau ikan keli", my fav dishes. We love to share gossips & stories together.... But everything's gonna be memories. He left me without a word. I've been talking to myself that he's not gonna live longer bcs I can feel from his eyes & his body. I've asked him to stay here a bit longer at least he could see my graduation day. I've promise to buy him luxury things when I hv my own money. But,,,,, Allah loves u more. You are now heading to the heaven & rest in peace. Past 2 weeks, I've took care of u for a week during my midsem break. I never know that, it was the last time we spent our days together. A week of taking care of u, it was so precious. I've cooked yr fav meal, chic porridge. Gives u positive vibes. Gives u motivation.... Thank you for everything & sorry for not being there by yr side on ur last day in this world. I will always pray for your happiness up there. There's nothing to worry abt here. Just go & rest in peace. Find ur true love up there cuz she's been waiting for u quite long. May Allah bless u & forgive all yr wrongdoings in this cruel world. Al-fatihah....